I never remember when we met. Maybe that’s because it’s too long ago, when we were small little kids. All I know, I met you; I knew you and I want to know you more and I want to see you more.
You told me that you always remember the time when we first met. You said, you saw me walked down the hill and was singing and dancing happily. When you came to say hi, I was so shocked that I fell down, trampled, get my clothes dirty and cried loudly. You felt so guilty that you tried hard to make it clean once more and to stop me from crying.
Every time you told me this, it never changed. All the little bits and details were the same from the first you told me until the last time I heard you talked about it. That made me believed every word you said, every time you told.
The story didn't end there. You continued to do things that could stop me from crying so that mom wouldn’t hear you and scold you out. You run to the nearest shop which is 200 metres away just to buy me one lollipop and that didn't stop me from crying. You danced like crazy but I was still crying. Then you make weird faces but I was crying even louder.
Didn't know what else to do, you cried with me. Seeing you cried suddenly, stopped me from crying even more. You said, I asked you about why you cried. You answered me like this; “if there’s nothing else for me to do to stop you from crying, let me, at least, cry with you so that you won’t be alone.” With these words, you managed to make me smile and stop pouring out my tears. After that, you even said; “I will never leave you alone.”
Even in the state that I never did remember that day, I thought what he said was beautiful. For a little boy whose age was 5 trying to console a little girl aged 4 that was something remarkable.
There was once I doubted the story you told me, so I asked mom in case I told her about it. But mom said she never heard of such boy. At that time, I was thinking, maybe I did not tell her about my childhood love. That is all the reason why she did not know.
But your conversation with your sister really bothers me. I overheard she said; “please, don’t keep on lying to her about what didn’t exist. Just tell her the truth. Tell her that all the beautiful words were lie. Tell her that you were just playing on some game with your friends.”
My heart thumped like it never did before. I was hoping for you to deny everything and say that all you told me were some real words. But you did the other way round.
Clearly, I heard you said; “I’m sorry, I can’t. The game is just getting better. She trusted me and she would give the thing I’ll ask later. She never says no to me. She is one good girl to play with.”
“You definitely have something wrong with your head. You are her friend since your childhood. How could you do this to her? You gave her hope, now, then. Who knows what you will do later?” Your sister said dearly.
Without hesitate you return her words with these harshness; “Then, what do you want me to do? Tell her the ugly truth, that I met her on the day her father killed our family? Tell her that I only befriend with her just to find the right time to have my revenge? No, you won’t be hearing that coming out from my mouth in front of her. She just won’t get away from this.”
"You told me that it was just a mere game you had with your friends. And now you said, you actually did this for revenge? I don't even know you anymore." And I thought your sister was the closest person to you.
I never thought that all the time since we met until that moment, I was deceived by a man I trusted and loved with all my life. I never thought that one day I would be hearing that from you. I really hope that I was dreaming and that when I wake up, everything would be off my sight and you will be there, right in front of me, saying that you will never leave me alone.
But I guess, I was hoping too much from a guy who has nothing to offer me, a guy who hated me all his life, a guy who has the heart to fake all the love he poured to me.
I know you would be reading this someday, but I hope that day will come after I have gone and no longer live in the same world as you do. I don’t know if I could stand before you and look at you laughing at me about this. But I do know this, I will never be alone, as your hatred always come chasing me until the day I die.
And because I know that you would read this somehow, someday, I just want you to know that even if you always hated me, I will always love you. That’s one thing I would never regret and just so you know, knowing you is one of the best thing that happened in my life.
P/s; I just dreamed of you last night. I was your wife. How could that be true? Maybe in the next life, I just want to be your wife.
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